tod mude

...is german for dead tired. don't know if i got the spelling right, and i don't really care. i'm so weary that i really want to curl up in bed. but i can't. i must must must clean my house. it is a mess so messy that i don't even want to be home with the mess. it gets like this once a year: graduation time.

graduation is always stressful and busy. so much to do and to plan. programs, ushers, flags on the stage. its a lot, and i always worry that we will forget something. and then some parent who has waited twelve years for the glorious event of his child's graduation will only see what we forgot to do and be mad because we ruined graduation. i do not joke. these parents are scary.

so this year it is all that and more. because not only am i part of the planning, but i am a parent as well. i can't believe how much more this has affected me. i'm stressed to the max. i'm usually pretty low-key kind of a person. but not this week. in fact, a co-worker laughed at me yesterday and said, "I've never seen you be so assertive." i hastily apologized and wondered why have i become so crazy about this? it is because it is MY child's graduation this time and i want it to be perfect.

today we had a bbq for the students. what a blast. i love love love the bbq day. its so fun to be with the kids and most of them are really appreciative. i am however, dead tired. i shopped for hours yesterday (draging child and her friend along). it takes A LOT of food to feed 250 people. in fact, i was about halfway done at costco last night when i realized that there was no way in the world all this food would fit in my car. i called in the calvary...in the form of sil who has a truck. thank goodness she came to help me out.

anyway, because i have been non-stop busy with school, my house has seriously suffered. there is crap everywhere. and i don't even know where to start. flylady would say to start the timer, but i'm rebelling. but i must get busy. the fam are coming over tonight to watch the jazz game. i'm the only one who gets the fox sports channel. which is great--i love having 'em over. its just that now i have only 1 hour to do 3 weeks worth of cleaning. and instead, i'm blogging. don't that just make all the sense in the world? :)

so, this post is just me complaining. which is okay, because i'm the only one that ever reads this post anyway.